This Is Who I Am

Leaving For New Lands

2010-07-27T20:47:00.004+08:00

So the inevitable has happened. It was all a matter of time really, but now it's finally my turn...

I'm moving from Blogger to Tumblr! :D

Initially didn't want to, but OHMAIGAD HAVE YOU SEEN THE AVPM POSTS THERE.

Ahem. Anyways.

The new link is http://musingsandmelodies.tumblr.com/ , please remember to re-link if you did link me, yeah? :)

I'm probably gonna keep this blog open for the sake of sentimentality, but you never know. ;O

Simple Love Songs =/= Cheesius Maximus

2010-07-11T01:20:00.002+08:00

So I been listening to alot of love songs lately. Especially 'Two Is Better Than One'. I love how the melodies come together, and everything about the song is just... right. :)

Isn't that what like/love/*insert-your-own-term-here* supposed to be though? Everything being just right, with that one person?

I woke up this morning and missed someone. But now... I feel free.

Free to analyse whatever-the-hell music I have.
Free to pursue writing.
Free enough for my classical training in piano to finally kick in after years of oppression.
(It's so not a good time though.)
Free enough to actually finish my homework on the day it's given. (Shock and horror! Yes I know.)

And as cliched as this may be...

Free to discover who I am. :)

I 've had my good times, my bad times, and my ups and downs. But right now, I'm learning to take everything as it comes to me in stride. It's a somewhat weird feeling, of me being free, but I LOVE it. :)

PS. I go rock-climbing nearly every Saturday now! Have been for the past two, anyone interested in joining me? (Get your own belaying partner though.) :D

What The Hell Do I Do Now?

2010-06-24T23:32:00.002+08:00

Still too young, or too old?

Still immature, or mature too soon?

Still hiding in the past, or throwing oneself head-first into the future?

I don't know anymore.

*

I used to think I was better than other girls. I thought that I didn't need reassuring, and I was independent, free of being clingy to others.

I guessed I was wrong. I like to be coddled, to be taken care of, to be let known that I'm loved.
(Just so in moderation, and in actions rather than words.)

Maybe I'm just paranoid. But the feeling I have in my stomach won't go away until I am assured that I do have that person's full attention.

Sigh. Maybe it's just me. :/

Past Whispers and Reminisces

2010-06-07T22:58:00.003+08:00

It's funny how pictures can bring back a multitude of (by-gone) feelings.

A slow touch of hands, deliberately-by-accident.

The feel of his warmth next to me.

"So can I have your number?"

It's just a shame that not even months of texting could forge a possible friendship. We don't even speak to each other anymore.

Still, it was fun (at times) while it lasted.

YOUTH'10 Festival

2010-05-31T21:25:00.002+08:00

No time to write up on what happened (exams in a week, HALPZ) but here's a video of Kenneth, IMran, Kar Reid and Azri playing as "K.I.T.A." at the YOUTH'10 Festival. They're awesome, 'nuff said. :D

Who you gonna call? GHOSTBUSTERS! 8D

Random Thoughts And Ramblings

2010-05-14T00:30:00.004+08:00

I think of your lips against mine, and my insides pull at my heart. Begging for more, but what can I give when I have nothing (or no-one)?

You're beautiful, but you don't know it. You even manage to take my breath away. And I'm the girl here, damnit.

As enigmatic as you are, as much as you pique my interest, if you don't show any signs, you'll just be like the one before.

I hate mixed signals. Don't be like a girl, because you certainly aren't one.

How is it that you fit nearly perfectly in the mental mould I have of the 'perfect guy', as cliched as it may be? But yet you still are not. No one is.

When will I ever get a hug and proper conversation from you?

There are many doors in our lives. By opening a door, you make a decision. By locking it, you turn that chance away. The probability of you opening a door is 50/50: there are only two choices. You can hem and haw, delaying and waiting, but you have to make a choice in the end anyway. Why not open the door and take a chance? There's nothing you can't risk, if you have the chance to be happy. (Paraphrased from Shaun.)

Don't take everything in this post at face value. Some comments were written for now, some were for the past. Some are for (a hopeful) future.

The past few weeks have been... somewhat emotionally draining. Not to a bad extent, but it was, to an extent, a thorn in my side. (Feelings are ambiguos things: they make you welcome yet abhor them.) And can someone tell me what to do about the urge to make out? Seriously, it bugs me so much. So. FREAKING. Much.

Okay, rambles done. Time to sleep. :)

An Update Of Sorts

2010-04-26T17:48:00.004+08:00

I PASSED MY DRIVING TEST!!! :DDDDDD

FREEDOM BECKONS YUSSSSS 8DDDD

Other than that, this week's gonna be a hectic one. Taylor's Got Talent on Friday night, with the SATs the day after. THEN, Tokio Hotel's concert thing at OU.

OMG I IS ESSITED BILLLLL 8D

Gonna be so stressed/excited this week HEE~

Hopefully I don't accidently (on purpose) throw myself off a building because of too much excitement/stress. XD

On the other hand, I wonder how my entire Econs class (HS3 &HS4) will be able to fit in PS3's class. No place leh~ :/ Oh well.

Lyric Post

2010-04-24T22:57:00.003+08:00

"Do you dream at night
Dream of 'What if I's?
Do you play love songs
Just to sing along?
Does your heart beat faster
When I'm there?
Do you think of me?
Do you even care?"

Just a little drabble. (c) to me, STEAL AND DIE. >:D

Oh, and comments too plzz. :)

Random Wordspit.

2010-04-16T14:47:00.003+08:00

"I've been watching
Looking and waiting
For a story to happen
For a song to start playing"

(The start of a so-called song that WH wanted to start yesterday in the library but failed. XD)

I need to start bringing my camera to school and to take more pictures of my college friends. My blog seems so... BLAND from the lack of pictures. .___.

Currently in bed with the lappie and with the lights off. Rain's pouring outside my window and it's such a perfect time to sleep. :)

Btw, need some advice. How do you know if you've fallen for a person or if a person has fallen for another person?

Holidays~

2010-04-14T21:33:00.003+08:00

So after long hard weeks of sloughing away at college doing homework upon pile of homework and studying for tests (and failing), the CAL students of Taylors' FINALLY get a ten-day break.

YESSSSS :DDDDDDD

BUT.

Time in holidays are meant to be used as a means of catching up on work that you missed out on in normal classes (if you did miss some classes) and to revise the bulk of the syllabus that has been taught by the teachers to prepare for the upcoming Semester I exam.

(BOOOOOO.)

While my original plan WAS to actually, seriously catch up on homework, I ... kinda failed. But only halfway through!

I wasted three days on bumming around the house (Saturday, Sunday and Monday) when I could've gone to the TTDI library to do homework instead. =.=''

But before that I went out and hung out with friends. Ah, t'was fun. :)

Had mamak with Kenneth on Wednesday night after I got scorned by Kelly, Sabrina and Samantha. :'(

Had dinner and watched Date Night with ChungWye, Victor and ZhenHowe on Thursday night. (MUST GO WATCH THE MOVIE IT'S DAMN GOOD 8DDDD)

Went out and watched a movie with Jo, Grace, Deb, WaiHwa, Kenneth, Shaun, WengHian, WanYing, YinYii, Joyce, Melissa, Imran, Nicole and KarReid, How To Train Your Dragon. Kath then joined us, and we went off to the batting cages. In the end, Jo, Grace, Kath, WaiHwa, Kenneth and I had dinner at IKEA. Meatballs yay :DDD

(... Aiyoh, no wonder I'm going broke. X_X)

So now I've sorta started my Econs project paper, though for the life of me I can't imagine how I'm going to elaborate my points until 10-15 pages. Darn.

And there's Lit. homework (plotline for King Henry the IVth, Part I), and long LONG overdue Psychology essays.

... I'm so screwed. >:(

Night Out Of Fun :D

2010-04-03T16:35:00.005+08:00

Uurgh, stupid over-reactive imagination. When combined with hormones and rom-coms it makes me physically frustrated. >:(((

*Slaps self* Oh-kay, shall stop thinking of the physiciality of relationships now. I'm supposed to be off boys.

Anyways...

Went out to celebrate Kar Reid and Grace's belated birthday yesterday at The Curve. T'was extremely awesome. :D

We were supposed to leave school around... what, 3.30pm? But instead, the lot of us bummed around in PS3's class. ("What, what, in my butt." LOL This one's for WaiHwa and Kar Reid XD)

After that, finally headed for The Curve at around 5pm? Poor Kenneth got scorned by Shaun and his no-show of sportsmanship. (Donut be so kiasu lah Kenneth ;P)

Met at the cinema, then went for "Clash Of The Titans". I think it's my first time watching a blockbuster movie that has absolutely NO kissing scenes in it. Seriously. It's like, almost a miracle, 'cos y'know, sex sells and all that. But only it isn't. Oh whichever. But do try naming a movie where there wasn't any kissing. Even the Princess And The Frog has the characters kissing. =.=''

Deb left after the movie. :'( The rest of us, namely Shuan, Kar Reid, Jo, Grace, Imran, Kenneth, WaiHwa and Kevin (aka the Kommando, spelt with a K) had dinner at Itallianies.

And then I was reminded of how... childish boys can be. =.= (Name-swapping and random song spouting, anyone?) But it also reminded me of how sad my existence at Taylors' really is 'cos there are no boys in my class. T_____T

At the end of dinner Kar Reid (and to be honest, the rest of us as well) were surprised by half a cake, from Imran. Turns out he bought it from Secret Recipe and instructed the restaurant staff to come up at the end of dinner. How nice of him. :)

Then Shaun, Grace, Jo and Imran left, leaving only me, Kevin, Kar Reid, Kenneth and WaiHwa.

We went to the Ice Bar at The Sanctuary, where everything is made out of ice. O.O

It was pretty cool and all. No it was actually freaking freezing in there. I couldn't stop shivering and all of us were like, "It's bloody cold!" (Or something to that effect anyways XD)

Trip to the Ice Bar also was my first drinking experience. Is it really that hard to believe I've never drank before , though? @.@ 5 shots of Smirnoff for RM88. Nothing too bad, actually. I just downed it in one go. It made me all hot after that. >.<>:(

So all in all, it was a pretty fun night out, even though I bet everyone was actually kinda tired after college and whatnot, but at least we went out together. :DDD Can't wait for the next trip, though I have no idea when will that be, given that we're so busy and all. Nuts.

No photos whatsoever, because none of us thought to bring our cameras. I'll probably get it from FB or something. :D

PS. Is anyone interested to study together at the TTDI library during the CAL hols? (8-18th April) It's closed on Mondays, but I'm planning to go like, everyday. I've craploads of Psych essays to do, King freaking Henry to read finish, the SATs to study for, and Maths and Econs. Uurgh. D8

It's RM16 for a one time membership fee, and there's sorta like a dress code for girls, but it's not that bad lah. At least we get to study. :D It opens from 9am-6pm on weekdays, and 11am-4pm on weekends. So far, it's me, Deb, Kathleen, and maybe Jo, Grace, Kenneth and WaiHwa.

Let's study togetha-getha... and maybe go swimming after we're done. XD

Random Trufax About Me

2010-03-17T22:28:00.004+08:00

I like being alone sometimes. It gives me space to think and ponder.

IMO, phone calls > MSN > text messages.

Sometimes I wonder if I'll ever fall in love. It seems so impossible.

I hate arguing with friends. I cried once because I got into a fight with my best friend.

But then again, I'm not the kind who cries easily. The last time I really truly cried was a few years back.

I speed read. All the time.

I procrastinate. Most of the time.

I have mild OCD. Sometimes.

I overanalyse and think too much for my own good.

Just because I spazz about someone, doesn't really mean I actually LIKE them.

I've bought too many books and now I can't finish reading them all. D8

Annoying, immature people get on my nerves.

I swore alot when I was 14/15. And now I'm starting again, no thanks to Kath. =.=''

I have a doctor's handwriting: you can never read and make sense of it.

I like singing. In the shower. :D

Apparently the way I talk = me flirting. @.@

I sometimes wonder if people actually know the real me.

Questions? Ask me on my formspring. :)

Tying Up Loose Ends

2010-03-06T19:45:00.004+08:00

I hate how I'm pretty good at screwing with people's feelings over and under. Realization doesn't strike me until the MOST inoppurtune moments, when I've gotten myself in too deep.

I hate how I'm shit at confronting situations with people in person. And I deserve any hate if anyone does ignore me for the rest of my life if I pulled that stunt. I know I would do the same thing if I were on the receiving end.

(And I'm sorry for that. I really am.)

I hate how my brain has yet to be equipped with a sensor that differentiates my feelings, as in feelings between "like", "lust" and "like-as-in-I-want-to-have-you-as-my-bf-or-more-commonly-known-as-love(for lack of better word)".

Maybe it's my fault for being so complicated.

So that's it.

Unless you're someone who can make my insides melt into honey (e.g. signal of when I'm falling for someone) whenever you look into my eyes and vice versa (which is impossible, given my character of NOT dating anyone who I already consider a 'friend')...

I'm probably swearing off any romance with any males for next few months. Or until I turn 18. Or when I finally get that sensor everyone but me seems to have.

That is all. Don't ask for details.

(I also hate how I think like SUCH a guy: I hate emotions which complicate situations.)

New Beginnings.

2010-03-02T21:36:00.004+08:00

Ok Kelly here's your update. Nah. XP

Anyways.

Was sick yesterday AND today, which meant no school for me. :D

But though I managed to recover by sleeping for 13 hours STRAIGHT (WOOT), I'm dreading the amount of homework I'll have tomorrow. I missed Double Math AND Literature today! Ayam screwed lahh~ D:

So nothing special's going on in my life.

(I can hear the "CHYEAH RIGHT. BULLSHIT LAH YOU."'s)

XD LOL

Okay, there has been SOMETHING going on in my life. :) (If you read the previous post.)

I'm... kinda seeing someone. HEE~ :D

(Excuse random outburst, kthx.)

So far it's been great. :D

(And tbh, this post is also for him who said, "Why are there only 2 posts since I met you?" Oh hush you.)

And... if there's anything else... Ask me lorh. :D

Kthxbai. (Yes this is commonly referred to as a cliffhanger in literature. And yes I'm evil.)

I Never Knew...

2010-02-25T23:04:00.001+08:00

I actually felt myself blush for the first time today.

And I couldn't wipe that smile off my face.

:)

Do You NOT Read Post Scripts?

2010-02-15T21:46:00.003+08:00

Okay, time to clear up the misinformation, methinks.

Ever since the Jan 27th post, I've gotten two different kinds of reactions.

From the guys (even though I've said to NOT say it to my face. Thanks guys. =.=)
- "Wah, got so desperate boh?" (Or something along those lines anyway.)

From the girls
- "OMG HQ you made me reminisce / OMG so sweet"

All in all it's a total disaster. Guysward I mean. I LOVED all the comments that the girls gave me. Thank youuu~ :D

Getting on.

When I typed out that long, lengthy, burn-your-brains-out post, I neglected to mention one tiny 'lil fact about myself.

See, every year, without fail, I'd find myself suddenly drowned in the wanting and yearning of a boyfriend. To have someone to hold, someone to whisper sweet nothings in my ear whenever we're together.

(Getting off course, ahem.)

BUT.

It'll last all of two or more months, then I'm suddenly fine with things and carry one like before.

So BASICALLY, I published that post when I was... y'know, wanting someone really crazily.

However the need's not really that strong now. The feeling's waning. Things are slowly coming back to normal for me, personally.

So in layman's terms:

I'm not that despo for a boyfriend, but it doesn't mean I'm swearing to be celibate for the next 10 months.

With that said and done, please stop commenting on how the post makes me seem despo. Uurgh. Lower my self-esteem saja. Boo. >:(((

PS. I'm home alone and loving it! :D YAY for singing out loud with no one around :D

Sparks (?)

2010-02-03T22:27:00.003+08:00

What I Want, Will I Get?

2010-02-02T23:26:00.003+08:00

Just a little something I wrote like, eons ago. But it still reminds of how serious physical attraction feels. :)

The chemistry was always there
Lacking only sparks that flare
When I walked right past you
Could you feel it too?

Looking around for stolen glances
Not getting anymore answers
Stop teasing me and looking my way
Don't you know it leaves me with nothing to say?

PS. Let me know what you think :D

What I Was, What I Am, What I Will Be

2010-02-01T23:57:00.001+08:00

This is the place where I sit
This is the part where
I love you too much
Is this as hard as it gets?
'Cause I'm getting tired
Of pretending I'm tough
I'm here if you want me
I'm yours, you can hold me
I'm empty and aching and
Tumbling and breakin'
'Cause you don't see me
And you don't need me
And you don't love me
The way I wish you would
The way I know you could

I dream of worlds
Where you'd understand
And I dream a
Million sleepless nights
I dream of fire when
You're touching my hand
But it twists into smoke
When I turn on the light
I'm speechless and faded
It's too complicated
Is this how the book ends,
Nothing but good friends?

'Cause you don't see me
And you don't need me
And you don't love me
The way I wish you would

This is the place in my heart
This is the place where
I'm falling apart
Isn't this just where we met?
And is this the last chance
That I'll ever get?
I wish I was lonely
Instead of just only
Crystal and see-through
And not enough to you

'Cause you don't see me
And you don't need me
And you don't love me
The way I wish you would

'Cause you don't see me
And you don't need me
And you don't love me
The way I wish you would
The way I know you could

PS. A cookie if you can actually guess what song this is WITHOUT GOOGLING IT. :D

Crushes, Dreams, And Hopeless Fantasies

2010-01-27T20:58:00.004+08:00

Gosh, where do I even begin. Anywhere? The beginning? The end? The one part of my life where dreams were my world?

As most of my girlfriends know, I've never dated. Ever.

Never kissed or Frenched.
Never hugged by a boy I liked.
Never even been to first base.

When I put it that way, WOW, I sound totally pathetic.

But guess where all that... ahem, "energy" went to?

A cookie if you guessed "Fangirling!".

And yes, that's why for a major part of my high school life I was obsessed with bands. McFly, Tokio Hotel, DBSK, Super Junior, 2PM, you name it.

Spazzing over them made me feel like I don't need a boyfriend. Why waste time and money when the Internet's right in front of you? The fanfictions, the (obviously fake) ghei rumuors, that was all an excitement, a cheap thrill for me, if you will. The fantasies of what you'd do with them if you finally meet them. (Hehehe, try guessing what. XD)

But it was fun while it lasted.

Yes, if you see me now, it seems like I'm still a fangirl. Going on allkpop for news, STILL reading fanfictions, buying albums, splurging on concert tickets. (SUJU CONCERT YAY :D)

But now, it's merely a hobby. Not an obsession.

I have to admit I do have a weird fascination for Korean culture and its people. But that doesn't mean I immediately fall in love with every Korean boy I see.

(Wth people, I'm not that shallow, ok?!)

I haven't openly admitted this. I may have substituted the word for, I don't know, "dates", "to be kissed", "to get third-base laid".

Point is, I'm saying it out now.

I want a boyfriend. Not need (that's called being despo), but want.

OK, so I sound pretty shallow about now.

"Yerr, where got girl so open say one boyfriend one? Must be a lola* wan, that's why don't have before lah."

(*LOLA = Lack Of Love and Attention)

But think of it this way. I've never had the experience of a first love before.

Never experienced a hug from someone, his heat, his warmth, seemingly warming you up to the core as well, making you feel safe, safer than anywhere else in the world.

Never experienced holding hands, the shy touch of hands... before slipping into the crooks between your fingers, the grasp firm, not wanting to let you go.

Never experienced the sheer joy when the first thing you wake up to in the morning is a message from him.

Never been kissed, never been so taken aback as his lips touch yours slowly, hesitantly, then pressing harder and you feel like everything in this world is just right.

Never experienced hearing his voice from behind and just as you turn, all you can see is him and suddenly, your bad day doesn't seem so bad after all. In fact, it's perfect.

Read through this post again. And again. Do you know what I'm talking about?

(Oh, and it applies to boys as well. Just replace the 'he' with a 'she'.)

One day, hopefully sooner than later. I'd like to experience all that.

PS. If you're wondering where I get my... physical (and romantic) advice from, try reading fanfictions. Muahaha.
PPS. Nah, Sab, I finally wrote a "personal" post, lemme know what you think.
PPPS. Unless you're a girl (or Kenn, he has special privileges), do NOT mention this blog post to my face. Kthxbai.
PPPPS. And as if you couldn't tell by my writing, yes, I am a romantic at heart. ;)

Misleading Picture? Why Thank You :D

2010-01-25T20:07:00.004+08:00

(This is probably the only prom photo I'll ever upload on my blog. So sue me.)

That's Ironman (aka Steven Tey Teng Shuih) btw.

Anyways.

According to my cousin from JB:

*while flipping through all my prom photos for my cousins to see*
"Wah, look like Korean leh!"

Why thank you. :D

Why Oh Why Must Homework Exist?

2010-01-24T17:06:00.002+08:00

And this is what my room looks like when I have 5 more out of 7 poem analyses left to do. Which are due tomorrow. And lets not forget the Math homework.

HALPZ. DDDDDDDDDDD8

Second Week Of College

2010-01-22T22:08:00.002+08:00

So, another week of college has gone and passed. Eventful? Uneventful? I'm not quite sure myself.

Nothing much has changed, except that the classes I'm in are starting to get closer in terms of friendship. Which explains the sudden 'College List' I have up on FB and the mass adding of friends. :D

Classes are starting to have crazy workloads. @.@

Especially Maths. OMG MATHS =Bane of my existence.

BUT.

I refuse to drop the darned subject. NYAH. >:D

The amount of homework piles up EVERY DAY, but hey, if I can get through SPM, the second hardest high school examination in the WORLD, pssh, A-Levels are peanuts.

(Someone please remind me of this post when I start whining about how hard my life is later on, kthxbai.)

Unlike Sabrina, I don't take pics in school, because.... there's basically no time at all! It's wait outside of class (cos the class is freezing, as always), get into class, lessons, lunch, and lessons again. And repeat for the next day and the next day and the next.

But Friday's my classes' half-day, so we have the opportunity to go out and have a looooong lunch. We're even thinking of driving out to Desa Sri Hartamas for Korean food next week! :DDD

HOWEVER. (From here on in it's going to be the what-happened-today post, fyi.)

We had some teamwork building workshop for our Lit. in English class, AND we had to finish Mr. Gan's homework, so that meant doing econs and eating lunch at the same time. =.=''

The workshop was LMFAO funny. One part of the workshop was charades, and this is one of the snippets of it:

"Why you join the Lit class?"
"... 'Cause Ms. Anne is hot!"
*Cue racuos laughter*
"But you not lesbian right? That's why you go Psychology class got Mr. Kumar mah!"

XDDD

OH. OH. OH. AND. :D

I've mentioned this on FB, but there has been a guy (and some others as well) that have been catching my eye, if you get what I mean. ;D But how to introduce if he's a senior? D:

Ahem. Moving on.

Today's ECA Drive thing was AWESOME, btw. As the workshop thingy only finished at 3.30pm, the lot of us went down late.

AND WITNESSED A REAL FLASH MOB. O.O

Actually it's a dance flash mob prepared by the Dance club members, but they were AWESOME. And yes, it is as in possum. :)

At the end of the day, I signed up for 4 clubs, which are Dance, Music, Psychology, and...

Wait for it...

...

...

...

KOREAN! :DDDDD

Hahaha, bet you coulda seen that coming from afar. XDDD

All in all, I've met alot of new friends, and hope to get to know them better. :)

In fact, I'm kinda sad that college's only 5 days a week.

TT_TT

But then I remember the workload we have and...

Yeah I like my weekends better. XD

Procrastinator, I Am.

2010-01-17T22:25:00.003+08:00

Another blog post due to the pestering of friends. XD

College is awesome. No, screw that, it's fantastic. I'm so NOT regretting going for the Jan intake.

Friendly classmates, great lecturers, and a whole lotta' good-lookin' people. I like. A lot.

PLUS. Loads of cute guys and eye-candy. And all above average. XD

BUT.

It's so cold, we freeze our asses off EVERY SINGLE FREAKIN' DAY.

Someone PLEASE tell the administration to turn down the AC, especially in my class. D:

So far the week's been nothing but funfunfun. :D

Orientation was a blast, the ice-breaking thing was a great... well, ice breaker. (Pardon the pun.)

My classmates... well technically there's only 13 of us, but since the Humanities classes are so small, alot of other class people come to our class for their subjects. Combined classes lah. It's just that my class is the permanent one. =.=

The facilities are very canggih as well. The library may be small, but it's cozy. And we has alphabet chairs and beanbags, so there. XP

My lecturers are the total opposite of secondary school teachers. I LIKE. 8D

Mr K, the psych teacher, is GREAT. His lectures are fun and to the point.

Ms Anne is a tad strict, but if you don't cross the line, she'll be ok to work with in class.

Ms. Yogi is my super hyper Math teacher, she's even better at teaching Math compared to my Add Math teachers (Not that they weren't good...)

But the only gripes I have with the campus, besides the cold, is the time alloted for our lunch breaks.

One hour is SO not enough for lunch, especially when the restaurant's late with your order. Rushing back to class does not help in the digestion fo food, ya know.

I'll maybe continue the 'college life' posts later on, but for now, I'm hungry, and shall go scavenge for food. :D

PS. NAH UPDATED LIAO. XP

So Apparently I Should...

2010-01-08T02:15:00.003+08:00

It's freaking 2.15am now. And I'm still up. Darn biological clock, you're not supposed to follow the "stay up til 6am new years eve" plan!

Anywho.

A friend prompted me to update this dying, barely alive blog. ("Why all the posts the same wan?")

Hey, at least I still feed it (not very often occuring) news.

So. Typing away now.

...

Uh, nothing to type about.

Well, I could start to describe in detail how my plan to enjoy life on its own was crashed and burned when my dad decided to persuade me to join the Jan intake of A-Levels.

I could be all mad, sad, angsty and whatnot. But I'm not, so... MEH.

Nothing to update lorh. People around me know that my life very the boring one what.

Hang on, I take that back. I actually do plan to go KL with Kelly this Sunday, and with Sab the next. Mum's taking me to Kino as well this Sunday, along with Dad taking me to The Star Education Fair on Saturday. Oh, and I'm taking my undang test (like, FINALLY after bajillions of eons) on Monday. And let's not forget about the first day of school at Taylors' Sri Hartamas the day after.

But you probably didn't want to know about that anyways. ;D

Besides, it's not that I don't want to blog, it's just that... no one appreciates me blogging.

*sniffs and wipes away tear*

I mean, I would do alot better if maybe some people gave comments and-

Ah, screw it. I hate grovelling.

Leave me loads of comments and I will update. I happy, you happy. Sama-sama.

We cool we cool?

(Thank Haziq for that last line. XD)

Pre-U And Uni Woes, Oh My.

2010-01-03T20:02:00.003+08:00

Just a quick post before dinner. Just spent the past 3 hours researching what top-tier unis from the US want when I apply to be admitted.

Dear Lord, how will I ever get in?!?! DDDD:

They consider your high school results. M y results are average, if not below that standard. But according to Deb, they place more emphasis on your SATs, so that's abit of hope for me.

And not to mention I need to complete a Pre-U course first. Of course the generic plan was to do A-Levels, but that would so wrong for me on so many levels:

It's totally exam based. I can't stick exams. Have you seen how badly I did in school?
I'll waste another year of my life, because I'll be taking the July intake, and therefore have to wait six months to aply for uni.
Sure I could go for the January intake, but hello? No freedom at all! I'll do even worse, kthx.
A-levels are the hardest Pre-U course in the world. It'll be SPM all over again. No, thank you.
More memorising. More studying. More pressure and stress.

I'm considering the Candian Pre-U, but is it even accepted worldwide? I mean, yeah, it says so, but one can't be too sure about this. But I really like the way they teach. I mean, 70% coursework, and only 30% exams. I'm confident that I'll do better in this lorh. Not to mention, the dude from the CPU program at Taylor's was extremely convincing.

SO HOW?!

My whole future is at stake. Save me. D:

Happy 2010!

2010-01-01T17:50:00.003+08:00

Ah, it's a brand new year again. 2009 was awesome, granted, but I can't wait to kick-start off 2010 with a bang. :)

And so I spent New Year's Eve with Abby, Samantha and Yee Peng. Baked apple pie, swam by the pool, gazed at the moon, watched two movies, slept at 6am. Quite an uneventful New Years Eve, but I'm content. :D

Really sorry for the lack of updates, I just need to get sorted out. The past few weeks I've been busy going out, hanging out, moving stuff from my room (my room now has a fresh coat of paint, complete with a wall of colour), yada yada yada. In short, my current mind and body are tired like shit. X.X

No New Years resolutions, except:

Get a fitter, healthier body.
Earn extra pocket money by getting a part time job.
Study for the SATs. And maybe get a headstart on A-Levels as well.
Learn to DRIVE.
Learn at least two new languages.
Write more.
Continue my music studies.
Keep my room clean. (Ahaha, this'll be tough. XD)
Keep in touch with friends. And not just by Facebook.

I'm serious about the last one. So people, bombard me with your e-mails, handphone numbers and whatnot. I'm really going to make an effort with this, I've lost touch with so many people already.

Hey, if I can still chat with a friend who I've known since F3, and she's halfway across the world now, mind you, I'm sure that you, whoever you are, that's still in Malaysia, can spare some time to chat, no? :)

My Blog Is A Vegetable...

2009-12-26T23:18:00.003+08:00

...it's been in a coma/half dead.

Blame me, as I've been busy, busy, busy ever since the end of Chem paper.

Lazy to post pix, but a short recap:

Sleepover at Sab's, with phail movie marathon.
Went out for a day of pampering.
Took the SPM Chinese paper, which was EFFIN CRAZY HARD.
Bought SAT prep books.
Prom. (TQ to anyone who said I looked hot, btw. I appreciate it. ;D)
Movies.
Outings. Or shopping, whichever that is.
Cousins from JB/Singapore came up, kinda had fun with them.

Next on the agenda:

Two of my best friends birthdays. (I pokai buy present for both of them you know?)
LOADS of books to be read.
KBS World. Hell yeah. Date with the TV every weekday evening and night. :)
New Year's Eve.

Pictures will probably come... a whole lot later. I'm lazy, so sue me.

Just So You Know...

2009-12-10T00:07:00.001+08:00

SPM IS OVAAAAARRR 8DDDDDD

Well, technically, it's not for me.

But.

Screw Chinese.

MERDEKAAAAAAAAAAAAAA~~~~~

XDDDDDDDDD

Review : New Moon

2009-11-30T21:59:00.003+08:00

Ah yes. The mayhem of the Twilight Saga is back, with the recent release of the second movie, New Moon.

I would go on about the story, but, c'mon. 99% of us Form 5's have read the darn book, heck, even the entire series. Why should I waste my time going over the plot when we already know what's happened?

Instead, I'll be reviewing the performance of the main actors/actresses, a.k.a. Robert Pattinson, Kristen Stewart and Taylor Lautner. And maybe throw in some plot points as well, mehh.

Robert Pattinson as Edward Cullen

Frankly, I've never been able to completely connect RPatz as Edward. I mean, Edward's supposed to be like, perfect. And Rob is... well I just don't like his teeth. And hair. (Wash it sometime, yeah?) But anyways.

I absolutely despise the characterisation of Edward in the movie, because, well, he doesn't really DO anything. Yeah, it's Jacob's time to shine, but seriously? Edward's role in this movie =WRONGWRONGWRONG. Just... NO.

I don't really have anything against the actor himself, but they should've got another actor to play Edward. But as Ally said, "Who else can you imagine as Edward?"

Kristen Stewart as Bella Swan

First off, I think Kristen's kinda cute. In her own 'aw-shucks-shy-girl' personality. And I think she can act. I'm not sure, I've not watched her other movies, but she has gotten rave reviews, so...

But still. I do not like Bella in this. The whole movie, for her, is basically in this sequence:

Happy, crushed, sad, sad, depressed, adrenaline rush, stupid actions, fright, confusion, angst...

You get the idea. And she doesn't really DO anything, except maybe hang out with Jacob, laughs abit, nearly kisses him TWICE...

So yeah. Bella in New Moon = kinda annoying.

Taylor Lautner as Jacob Black

One thing's for sure : Taylor can ACT. As in real honest acting. Sure he's hot, but I noticed that he really embodies himself in his character. The way he asks Bella to "go away", you could practically see that he was spitting out the words, albeit reluctantly. He is awesome as Jacob, 'nuff said. And did I mention those chocolate abs? 8D

Wouldn't I love to be Bella in this... ^
His gaze could practically melt you.

So besides the acting, the cinematography was beautiful. Absolutely beautiful. I LOVED how the director managed to convey how Bella was when she was depressed, during those blank October, November and December months by slowly panning the camera around her. Wicked.

The special effects were mind-numbingly real. I could feel the vibrations in my seat when the wolves were chasing after Victoria through the forest.

Not to mention, the selection of tracks for the soundtrack. Anya Marina's 'Satellite Heart' is poignant, and her voice just matches the entire theme of the movie. Lykke Li's 'Possibility' is hauntingly beautiful, which matches the 'blank months' of Bella perfectly.

So, basically, watch the movie if you're a girl, or is interested in directing, or just want to check out the amazing soundtrack.

PS. The movie has also led to my new celebrity obsession : Taylor Lautner. Beware, you were warned.

HOTHOTHOT 8DDD

My Uncle Is So Awesome He Deserves This Blog Post.

2009-11-30T21:32:00.003+08:00

So, in reference to the title above, my uncle recently went to Korea. KOREA. For a holiday. Unfortunately for me, I had SPM. :(

However, the good thing is I got to 'tumpang shopping' on him. Muahahaha.

The most awesome thing is, all the things I asked for, he managed to buy for me!

*Sniffs* He's officially my number one uncle now. XD

Anywho, I decided to post this here because,

A. I'm a dork about Korean stuff.
B. I'm a fangirl.

'Nuff said.

Two 2PM albums, and GD's Heartbreaker album. I'm impressed.

Tablo's book, CeCi mag, ELLE Korea, and Junior magazine.

Check out the thickness of themagazines. I swear, 1 can actually be 1kg or more. They're that heavy. @.@

Oh, and turns out all the English versions of Tablo's book "Pieces of You" are sold out in Korea, so they only have the Korean editions left. Another good excuse to learn Korean! (As if the obsessions with its culture wasn't enough XD)

But this was kinda sad... And ruins the illusion that Korea is really that perfect.

An ad for plastic surgery. WTF.

Oh, oh and something extra. :D

He brought back 20 packets of Shin Ramyun for us too. Madness I tell you.

New Moon review coming up next! :D

How Can You Understand Me If I Don't Myself?

2009-11-06T16:14:00.002+08:00

I'm tired of this.

Of hoping for miracles that will never happen.

Of fantasising about 'what-ifs' that will never come true.

Of dreaming about when the day someone will come.

Of waiting hopelessly.

I was crazy about you.

Too bad the things I knew weren't true.

Swimming!

2009-10-10T21:41:00.005+08:00

Went library today, I was all alone. :( Saw Kelly, Hou Yi, Mei Tin and Mei Wan there, they were sitting at their own table.

Then I got a phonecall. Sabrina asked if I was there. Answering affirmatively, the next thing I knew, she was teman-ing me at the library! :D

Then we went swimming, after pigging out at the mamak. (Hou Yi came along as well, her dad was fetching her from my house.)

TQ Hou Yi for the the pix! :D (After she went back there weren't anymore D':)

Oh Sab...

I'm Counting Down The Days Where Farewells Abound

2009-10-09T19:30:00.004+08:00

So I went to the library today. Planned to study, which I did. But I also hung out and chatted with a friend, who's very close to me. We didn't really click until this year, and never realised each other existed until this year too. But he's one of the few friends that I can properly open up to and share secrets with.

So we talked. And somehow the topic came to how SPM's around the corner, and how we'll never see each other again after that.

It got me thinking. About how I used to be in Form 1, and everything that has happened until now.

I used to be this fat, short, bookish girl, the one that no one notices in class, and probably will not remember. I had such low self-esteem, that I actually thought, "Screw it, I can't wait to get out of this shithole with cliques and prejudices."

Then came Form 2. I met Samantha, Yee Peng, and Hou Yi. I guess that you could say that they were my first ever real friends in school. So thanks to the 3 of you, I opened up, and started talking more. (But not more enough to convince them that I was not a bookworm anymore. I was, but still.)

Form 3 was the turning point in my life. There I was going to sit with Magdalene, when this short girl asked me to join her and Wei Mae and sit with them. Until now, I sincerely am grateful that Tania is my good friend. She made me more sociable, increased my self-confidence, and was utmostly my best friend. She gave me advice about boys, she spazzed with me about bands (we were young lah), we exchanged secrets, she made so many ditzy comments that I managed to polish up on my sarcasm. (Fun times :P)

But she wasn't the only one, no. In Form 3, there was this new girl who just transferred, and she was short, and she talked reallyreally fast. Her name? Kelly Ng. (Or Kelly Ping, whichever she prefers.)

We got talking in Form 3, but I never really hung out with her. A few times yes, but not everyday. (And apparently I was still known as the girl who always read books. wth =.='')

When I managed to get into 4B, I got Kelly as my deskmate. Not only did she chastise me for reading too much, she always encouraged me to go out. (Or was it merajuk-ed? Haha, joking lah. :D) She lagi increased my self-esteem, and for once, I actually felt... I don't know, pretty? She's the one who I went prom-dress shopping with, the one who camwhores and makes me camwhore with her, who sleptover at my house so many times, who is, deep down, a very very kind and helpful friend.

Then 2008 turned into 2009. By that time I was quite close to Kelly, Sam, Yee Peng, and Tania. Then this new girl came into out class. She transferred in last year to 4A, but for some reason, she came into our class this year. And it was while having nilam period that I actually talked to Sabrina.

For some reason, I until this day have no idea, I feel that the both of us have so much in common, but yet are so different. I just can't explain it. She influenced me, in so many ways that I can't say them all here, but I am also very lucky to have a friend like her. She pays me compliments when I least expect it (very paiseh leh), she's intelligent, her thoughts on things are interesting, and she's all-in-all a great girlfriend. :) (And she makes me camwhore with her too.)

Samantha is also one-of-a-kind. She's so happy go lucky and makes me smile often with her lame jokes (not always lah), she's always making me go watch one video or the other, and she's just able to bring the mood up.

Yee Peng also one kind. She's so quiet, you wouldn't expect her to have sarcastic remarks, big giggles and facial expressions that are lol-worthy. She's the one I'm always leaning my head on, or hooking my arm 'round hers, or hugging her from behind. (What's a little skinship between girls?) She's the pillar in our group, the quiet stoic one.

And so, to Kelly, Samantha, Sabrina, Tania and Yee Peng:

Thank you for being such a great friend to me. Please please let's keep in touch yah, don't ffk when I ask you out. And I'll never forget you, ever. :D

(The post isn't over yet lah, what did you think?)

There are many people that I wished I'd known sooner. I can't list them all, but they are people who, I think, I could be good friends with.

When SPM finishes in two months time, I'll be asking hugs from some people:

KP, Debbie, Ally, Sheranne :
Thanks for the food, the fanfictions, the stories and the laughter. Where else can I find another group of talented individuals like you? Thank you Ally and Sheranne for the fanfictions, thank you KP for the fangirlism. And thank you Debbie for the awesome sketches. :)

Jason, Timo, YiHan, Aaron:
I didn't really know you guys until this year, and I think that you guys are the nicest guys out of the whole class. Thanks for putting up with me (and whichever lame-ness that I spouted up with), thanks for being such great guys, I'd really wish I knew you earlier, and I owe Aaron an apology. I'm sorry that I let you get all the flak from Cik Fatima in Chem, ehhehe. :) Sorry yah...

To the rest of the class:
I can't really say that I know you all well, but thanks for making our class the most awesome and unique one. We may not have been close to each other, but we still were one class together. And where else could you have found a whole class of self-proclaimed bananas?

To any friends that I have missed out:
I may have not listed your name, but that doesn't mean that I don't love you any less as a friend. Thank you for the gossip, the good times, the hanging out, the help with homework, the listening ear and the consoling words, the extra yummy food, the smiles, the laughter, the lameness, the camwhoring, the sharing, the joy and the love.

I'm sorry if you can't decipher any of my words, but mehh, it's just me. :D

Oh, and add me on facebook so we can keep in touch. ^^

School Day

2009-10-05T15:08:00.008+08:00

So I brought the cupcakes to school, and they were a hit! Thanks for the compliments everyone! :D Unfortunately Zack didn't come, so Josh and KahJun took his share. Oh, and Ally brought hers too, thanks Ally! Yours was super duper cute!

Our whole class got relocated to the Physics lab, courtesy of the impending PMR exams. Man, it just seems like yesterday that I finished PMR.

Pn. Misliah didn't come in for her class, so we basically had free reign. YESHH XD

Studying hard

Girls in baju kurung

Why so shy?

Attempt to take picture with Becky : PHAIL.

Jason LOL-ing his head off. XD

The next thing you know, the guys decided to check out the Japanese and Korean phrasebooks Ally and I brought to school. More specifically, the curses section. =.=''

Boys will be boys...

Gave Tania and WeiMae their cupcakes too!

CheeHong!

Was quite fun lah, today. Oh and thanks to whoever that signed my graduation book thingy! :D

Then after recess, exam papers came back, and we weren't so happy no more.

TT_TT

Off to study and go for Chinese tuition, toodles! :)

After Graduation...

2009-10-04T23:25:00.004+08:00

I made cupcakes! :D On Saturday evening and just tonight. My aunty had this sudden thing for cupcakes, so I jumped on the bandwagon. Hahaha, made butter cupcakes and chocolate ones too. Decorated them myself too, with butter cream and choc ganache. I feel damn accomplished larr. *grins*

Yummy undecorated cupcakes, fresh out of the oven.

Purr-ty. Attempt to put this on a cupcake...

PHAIL.

Cupcakes iced with butter cream.

Chocolate cupcake's batter.

Cupcakes iced with chocolate ganache. Used white and dark choc.

Specially for Ally! (Damn hard to do >.<)

I'm definitely keeping this. I think, not sure yet...

And.....

I'm bringing them to school tomorrow! :DDDDD Aren't you happy!

I only have like, 21, and 2 of those are my breakfast. So if you don't get one, please understand yah. I'm not a factory that can produce enough for everyone.

Who's getting them? Confirmed are the 5 guys who performed at Graduation Day, you guys deserve something. For the rest.... MUAHAHA, BEG PLEAD AND GROVEL THEN. (I kid, I kid.)

Look forward to tomorrow then!

Graduation Day!

2009-10-03T21:05:00.029+08:00

So today was our Form 5 Graduation Day. TBH, I didn't think it was that big of a deal. I mean, we haven't even sat for SPM! But then when I got there, it turned into something fun, a.k.a. seeing how people dressed up and taking pix of them. And the 5B band performance : EPIC. Heheh :D

To make a long story short, I'll let the pictures do the talking.

Warning, extremely image heavy (may kill your computer) and loads of epic phails. DARN CAMERA *shakes fist*

Look who I saw!

Looking very dapper.

Teachers in pakaian rasmi. Way better than those orange ones.

Hou Yi and Magdalene! HAI :D

Abby!

W/Li Synnnn

W/ Tania. Wah so sparkly geh?

The both of them.

WeiMae came looking like this! AWESOME

PinYeen, Amanda, Becky who came earlier

CheeHong and LiSynn

Hello, hello, siapa itu? XD

W/WeiMae, the chick who is an absolutely awesome friend. And who kinda looks like JanDi from BOF. (It's the hair, the HAIR)

Me, Tania, WeiMae

Mr. Luke Skywalker, or so he claims. o_O

Me, Skywalker-san, Abby

HonYu looking very pleased with himself. XD
Nadia who has supergorgeous endless long legs. *Jealous*

Sabrina finally arrived!

Two good-lookin' dudes looking very der happeh.

The 5B gals (or most of us anyway)

"?" ":D"

":D" ":D"

YiHan the photographer.

YeePeng and Samantha arriving very late. No lighting, photo PHAIL. =.=

Sab's candid pic. Damn photogenic, I xianmu leh.

The two dudes that sat in front of me.

1st attempt at camwhoring with Kelly. PHAIL.

Do we look hot and sweaty? 'Cause we were. >.<

Tania in her graduation robe

Look, Ma, we've graduated! XD

Ally the photographer with KP looking pretty.

The 3 Musketeers.

Jason & Timo, the guys who are super-nice. :)

The tall girls of 5B.

Wahh, look so yeng...

Rose amongst the thorns.

HonYu's face says it all.

KahJun, why the awkward smile?

Group photo PHAIL, too blur =.=

Spot the difference XD

W/Ally, amazing songwriter and fangirl-in-arms

W/Sabrina, photogenic camwhorer with a contagious laugh.

Felicia's performance with a Form4 girl.

Fan dance by another Form4 girl.

Indian dance.

The 5B band setting up.

YiHan, accoustic guitar; Aaron, electric guitar.

Timo, keyboardist and vocalist.

Jason, beatbox; Zack, bass.

The band in action. They performed Starlight and Life in Technicolour. Got encore sommore leh. :D

Deb surprised them with flowers!

Packing up. Aww no more :(

W/Debbie, who's an awesome artist and is a very articulate person. And who often gives out hugs. :)

Budding photographers

W/YiHan, our friendly Ketua Kelas. Nice dude to talk to. :)

W/Jason, the guy who can be quite random at times. But he's a great friend. :D

W/Timo, supersuper talented artist and musician, and Abby, my amigo for anime.

5B band photo with KahJun the triangle man.

W/HonYu, a person with very deep thoughts. Mm hmm.

You gotta admit, guys in our form can pull of the smart casual look very well.

Wahh, Sam and YiHan look good together leh! XD

W/Aaron, the dude who I sit next to in Chem class. Or used to anyway. lol

Class group photo. Aren't we precious?

At first it was 3...

Then 5...

And another one. Wth lah u people =.=

We has supersexy legs, yarr? :D

W/Felicia the prettyful. Her dress damn gorgeous, like her lah haha

W/ PinYeen who always gets better results than me and is taller too. :'(

Kelly, Timo, Hon Yu, me

>W<

YiHan's red-hot phone. Kononnya was his sister's.

W/Magdalene, the girl, who, like me, loves K Pop. And 2PM (Hurhurhur)

W/ Chee Hong, the talented musician. (He plays the erhu :) )

W/ XinMei, WeiMae's partner-in-crime during Chem tuition.

Holidays Are Here Again....

2009-09-20T15:06:00.002+08:00

The holidays are here, which means prom dress shopping! Hahaha

There has been absolutely NOTHING going in on my life, so excuse the maybe random outbursts that may occur.

Attending a wedding dinner tonight, where I'll meet old acquaintances. Hmm.

The stupid 2PM issue has not been resolved, so I have decided to distance myself away from K Pop for the moment. Which means no spazzing. Boo :(

G-Dragon from Big Bang has this ultrasuperamazingly cute puppy! *squee*

And since I'm distancing myself away from K Pop, there's nothing much I can do except stalk the 'uhljjang' thread at Soompi.

SO DER MANY MANY PRETTY BOYS AND GIRLS. *jealous*

'Uhl' is face in Korean, and 'jjang' means best, so basically these people have 'best faces'.

The things they have in comon?

1. All of them have practically flawless, pale, fair skin. Even the boys.
2. All of them are inhumanly baeuiful. Yes beautiful, not just pretty.
3. All of them have fashion sense. And no, it's not lala fashion.

I don't really care about the girls, but the boys there are drool-worthy. Like, seriously.

So maybe half of them may had plastic surgery. Pshh. As if I care. What I care about is that they're pretty eye-candy for the moment.

On a closing note, Haeundae the movie made me cry.

And it's a film about a killer tsunami in Korea, dammit.

But it still made me cry. TT___TT (MinKi-ah~)

FUCK NO WAY IT'S HAPPENING

2009-09-08T17:05:00.003+08:00

Remember when I told you guys about how I fell in love with yet another boyband? They're 2PM, and they're the best thing to happen to me so far this year.

Last Saturday, a scandal concerning the leader, Jay Park blew up way out of proportion. Apparently he made derogatory remarks about Korea 4 years ago, and netizens were bashing him up online.

He manned up and took responsibility, saying everything was his fault and apologaized. But the netizens weren't happy. They made his boss cancel all of 2PM's activities, and they asked him to 'leave it or love it', but they didn't give him the latter option. They wanted him out of the band.

They even created a peition for him to commit suicide! Apeshit crazy.

And just now at 4.15pm, I got a tip from my friend. And it says :

On the official 2PM fancafe, leader Jaebeom announced that he will be officially quitting 2PM. JYPE has just confirmed this is true.

This decision was made after his recent Myspace controversy was blown out of proportion. Jaebeom will be leaving Korea today at 6:30pm KST.

Jaebeom posted:
"Hello, I'm 2PM's Jaebeom.

I'm sorry for giving you my last greeting through this letter.
I think it will be hard for me to see you all on stage because of my sorry heart.

I'm really sorry to everyone, and I'm even more sorry to the fans who have shown me love.
From today, I will leave 2PM.

2PM boys, I'm really sorry to the boys and I'm sorry I couldn't be strong as a leader and a hyung and have to leave like this.
However, I hope you will be more cool and charming.

Again, I'm sorry.

Jaebeom"

cr : 2ONEDAY Forums and allkpop.com

WELL OMGWTFBBQ.

STUPID NETIZENS. HE'S HUMAN AND YOU TOOK AWAY HIS DREAMS IN JUST A FEW DAYS. HE HAS WORKED SO HARD FOR FOUR YEARS, AND HAS ONLY DEBUTED A YEAR. HOW COULD YOU DO THIS TO HIM?!

YOU WISHED FOR HIM TO LEAVE. HAPPY NOW? AND IT'S CONFIRMED THAT ONCE HE SETS FOOT ON THAT PLANE IN 19MINS, HEADED FOR SEATTLE, HE'LL NEVER COME BACK. EVER.

I HOPE YOU'RE HAPPY NOW. YOU JUST DESTROYED A MAN'S DREAMS, HIS GROUPS' CAREER, AND BROKEN HEARTS OF MANY K-POP FANS OUT THERE.

A Spark In The Middle Of Darkness...

2009-09-04T14:51:00.004+08:00

AHASFHASJSHJJS STUPID TRIALS.

BUT.

OHOHO.

GUESS WHO I MET. AND SIGNATURE I GOT.

:D And yes, it is the pretty boy dude from Boys Over Flowers. :DDDDD

ON THE OTHER HAND...

2009-08-22T23:02:00.005+08:00

Went to the Popular Bookfest today, got VIP invites from my aunt. Ajaked Kelly along as well.

The workers this year have red aprons! I didn't get an apron last year. TT_TT

(FYI, I worked at last year's Bookfest under my aunt. Because renting space costs around RM20K this year, she decided not to participate. Boo.)

I am SO going to work at next year's Bookfest.

And I have this theory that the Popular company actually goes to Chinese high schools ('cos they need people who can speak Chinese mah) and recruit the workers. I'm serious, all of them look like they're in high school. Can tell one lah.

Oh, and look what I got!

And that's not all!

Haha. And guess what I'm reading now. :D

A New Update, FINALLY.

2009-08-22T22:19:00.004+08:00

I'M BAAAAACCCCKKK PEOPLE! MISS ME?

Haha, corny lines aside, after receiving much complaints from various people *coughjasonhonyukellycough*, and having the entire weekend to myself, I've decided to be nice and treat you people to my experience, at the

MTV WORLD STAGE LIVE IN MALAYSIA!

And no, I'm not shoving it in your face, I'm just posting my account of it. If you wanted to go so badly you would've tried to get tix. So there.

Anyways.

On the 15th of August, 2009, I experienced the most awsome night of the year. A chance to be in the moshpit, with another few hundred screaming fans, watching world-class acts play live? No one would pass that up. Ever.

My guy friend (I'm not sure wether he wants his name to be mentioned, and I don't feel like letting him get any more attention, therefore he shall be known as 'the dude') picked me up from my house, and in return, I treated him to a movie. G.I. Joe baybay.

Can't comment much on the acting, but like Transformers 2, you watch it just for fun, not to critique it.

After that, went to line up for my mosh pit tix, which I got by e-mail (thank you, thank you, MTV, for inviting me). Took a bloody long time lor, but I saw some ex-seniors from BU3 there as well. That was interesting, since I haven't seen them in years.

Halfway through it started drizzling, so the kind MTV people on the job gave everyone 'MTV Wet Weather Gear'. How nice of them. :) (In the end, I didn't use it anyway. Neither did anyone from the few hundred moshers)

After getting my tix, made my way to the pit. Met another friend there. And together, we complained about how hot it was and why weren't any of the bands playing yet. :D

Finally, around 6++pm, Estranged started playing. Sad to say that we, the audience wasn't that interested. But there were groups of people headbanging to the 4 songs that were played. (I wanted them to play 'Itu Kamu'. They didn't)

After that, was BOYS LIKE GIRLS! Prior to this gig, I had no idea what they looked like, I swear. And now I know why so many girls fell, fall, and are falling for them.

(Excuse the next fan-girly-ish comment)

OMG THE LEAD SINGER IS SO SO SO GORGEOUS!!! BIG BABY BLUE EYES AND BLONDE HAIR AND HE'S FIT AS HELL :DDDDDD

Uhm. Getting on.

They played Love Drunk, Hero/Heroine, Thunder and The Great Escape. The best part was during the last 2 songs. EVERYONE sang along.

You know the feeling, where you feel so at ease and excited and happy when everyone is singing along to the same song? Yeah that feeling. I loved it. :D

AND AND AND. The lead singer actually climbed up the scaffolding on the right side of the stage during The Great Escape. Madness, I tell ya.

After them was Raygun. Now I'm sure when the MC announced that the next band were them, many of us thought: 'Eh, dunno what ciplak Malaysian band only lerr.'

So imagined our surprise when and English band came out. And I've got to say, they have the FINEST lead singer and bassist, EVER. The bassist was so fit, and blonde, and the lead singer was wiiillld.

And because MTV kept replaying their song, 'Just Because' before they came on, when Raygun started with that song, everyone just sang along. (Hey, that rhymed!) Unfortunately, they only played 4 songs. I know I wanted more than that.

Following was Pixie Lott. The first thing that came into my mind when she came on stage was:

Malaysia so blardy hot still can wear a long dress with long sleeves!?

BUT. SHE WAS AWESOME. Maybe some of you don't get it, but I happen to like female performers who can actually, y'know, SING. Like properly. But she only came on for 3 songs. Mighty super catchy ones too. :)

Hoobastank was next. 2 songs from their latest album, followed by Crawling In The Dark. THEN.

*"Doug" 'Audience'

"So, Malaysia, can you really sing?"
'YEAH!'
"Really?"
'YEAAAH!'
"Let's see you sing to this one.'

They started to play the 'Ghostbusters' theme song.

NOW ISN'T THAT THE MOST AWESOME AND RANDOM PART YOU'VE EVER HEARD OF BEFORE?!?!?

Hoobastank rocked. And that easy-excited feeling came back on full-force when they started playing The Reason.

*Sigh* I love singalongs. *smiles*

THEN THEN THEN

DUN DUN DUN DUN....

THE ALL-AMERICAN REJECTS! :DDDDDD

Tyson Ritter is mad sick man. He came out in a neon green tank top with BOTH his arms covered in PURPLE GLITTER. The guy rocks off all our socks.

They started off with 'Dirty Little Secret', which was WILLD. At that point I was RIGHT at the front, so seeing them up close like that, and headbanging and moshing to one of the world's most well known song...

People, y'all should've SERIOUSLY tried to go. Screw H1N1 lah. Damn worth it. (And I'm not sick yet.)

I'm getting sick of listing out the songs, but they played, in total, 7 songs, the longest set of the night.

ANDANDAND

When they played It Ends Tonight, I got that feeling yet again. (I LOVE CONCERTS LIKE THESE :D)

ANDANDAND

When they played their last song Gives You Hell,

TYSON CLIMBED ONTO THE SCAFFOLDING ON THE LEFT SIDE.

Mad crazy awesome lah basically.

At that point, dying of thirst, so had no choice but to ditch Kasabian (I'm sorry, I'm sure you guys were awesome as well T.T)

And uhm, for some reasons, I can't exactly tell you what happened next, but let's just say I got to see 2AM perform.

No pix, of the whole thing, cause camera's weren't allowed, and I didn't want my phone to go SPLAT on the mosh pit floor due to the moshing.

:D

In conclusion,

MTV WORLD STAGE ROCKED. HELL YEAH.

PLEASE COME BACK NEXT YEAR.

^^

Finally, An Update!

2009-07-03T10:06:00.004+08:00

Yes, I am fully aware that my blog has been dead for the past few weeks, thankyouverymuch. Blame not having to be able to use the computer for like, 2 weeks then.

Since my last post, things have turned topsy turvy. How? let me count the ways...

- I didn't kena NS! YEAH! I was SO nervous waiting for the stupid sms to come in. And I checked TWICE : online and through sms. So holidays after SPM, here I come!

- The MTV Asia Awards are going to be held in Malaysia, AGAIN, this year, August 15 at Sunway Lagoon. 2PM's gonna be there.

...WHY JYP WHY?!! I'M HAVING MY TRIALS NEXT MONTH, DAMMIT!

SCREW TRIALS, I'M DEFINITELY GOING. :D

- I'm stopping my dance class. TT_TT After this Saturday, I can't go to SMASH until like, after SPM. I'll miss my teacher, my dancemates, the Starbucks that I used to get....

(OK, so the Starbucks thing is a joke, but I really will miss them. Dennis you better finish that Ray J cheoreo this weekend, PLEASE...)

- Somehow, I feel like I've been retreating into a shell lately. I have no idea why. I don't feel happy, more depressed, and I feel like I am slowly being pushed away. Call it emo or PMS-ing, I'm sure it isn't. I'm slowly being left out.

- TRIALS START IN SEPTEMBER! MUST STUDY!

- 2PM'S IN THAILAND! This is another thing I hate about Korean stars. It's always, ALWAYS Thailand. Malaysia's just a hop, skip and jump away. JUST COME HERE ALREADY, DAMMIT!

- I've managed to get ally into JunSu from DBSK, Debbie into Alex from Clazziquai. Not really that much, but it's still a start. :P

And hence, I conclude that maybe for the next few months, this blog will continue to be dead. :)

Not AGAIN!

2009-06-05T17:29:00.005+08:00

So, the hols have started. I've been going crazy, shopping, going out with friends, and spazzing over boybands. REALLY really spazzing.

Since I'm not that good at 'what-I-did-today' posts, basically:

Thursday went to One Utama.
Friday went to The Curve.
Saturday, Curve again after dance class.
Sunday, Curve AGAIN.
Monday, Taylor's College Life In One Day program. ('Twas fun ;D)
Tuesday, BM tuition and Abby's b'day party.
Lazing at home on Thursday and Friday (e.g. today)

Anyways, the above shows that I just used up my quota of 'going out with friends'. Not because I don't want to, but because I can't. Mehh.

And in reference to my posts' title,

I FELL IN LOVE WITH YET ANOTHER KPOP BOYBAND. AGAIN.

This is not good. People who know me KNOW that when I spazz over a boyband, it means that you're supposed to run for the hills. Literally.

THIS CANNOT BE HAPPENING.

WAIIII OH WHY DOES THIS HAPPEN?

I blame my stupid weak self-discipline and my taste for hot pretty Korean boys.

I was just innocently using YouTube when JYP decided to launch a nuclear atomic fangirl-satisfying bomb on me.

People, say hello to my new favourite band of the moment, 2PM. XDDD

Now, before you say anything else, here's something to chew on:

They can sing and dance. At the same time.
They are awesome b-boys and dancers.
They're hot. (Hello, chocolate abs! Choi Siwon who?)
Their average height is 180cm.

If I haven't convinced you, go check out their Idol Army episodes.

2PM Idol Army playlist (YouTube)

WARNING : Strictly NOT for homophobes.

Anyone with prior experience to Eastern boybands should know this ONE important fact:

Skinship is a must.

And with that, I am now leaving to drool over more 2PM videos. ;D

Edit : OMO I JUST READ THAT WONDER GIRLS ARE GOING TO BE TOURING WITH JONAS BROTHERS.

THE AUDACITY! NOOOOO......!

Music Updates!

2009-05-27T23:19:00.002+08:00

So, after being away from the computer for around two weeks (K Pop deprivation sucks the life out of me), I come back online and find that SuJu released a new single, off a new repackaged album, called "It's You".

(FYI, Super Junior is a 13 member boyband from South Korea. They sing and dance, and are probably the funniest people ever. But more on them later.)

AND DO THEY LOOK FINE. ;DDD

I'll just let the video do the talking.

Super Junior - It's You

Oh, and other than that, I found out the Wheesung, another K Pop singer, has covered Craig David's "Insomnia"! And it's SO addictive. ;P

Wheesung - Insomnia

And for those who have'nt checked out SNSD's "GEE" song, do check it out. It'll get stuck in your head for weeks. (It did for me.)

SNSD - GEE (White Dance Ver.)

Lastly, I found this song on YouTube, by Park Jin Yoon. K Pop fans know her as the girl who recorded the song "Adult Ceremony", but her newest single is, quite plainly, lovely.

Park Jin Yoon - In My Fading Memory

EXAMS ARE OVER! ;D

2009-05-27T22:46:00.002+08:00

As per the title above,

EXAMS ARE FINA-FRICKIN'-LY OVER! WOOHOO!

*Throws confetti in air*

After 2 weeks of PURE, UNADULTERED TORTURE, FREEDOM BECKONS.

YESSSSSSSS!

Will be back with more coherent updates. :D

Still Procrastinating...

2009-05-01T16:14:00.004+08:00

Darn it, I can't seem to concentrate on my studies! Oh well.

On the other hand, I've got a song to recommend... It's a very sad song, with him saying how he's in pain from loving. Or something like that. Anyhoo, enjoy! ;D

EDIT : Found an english subbed one!

Evan (에반) - 머리와 심장이 싸우다 (Struggle of the Mind and Heart)

Exams. Homework. Daydreams. ...Crap.

2009-05-01T14:05:00.004+08:00

HALPZ.

Exams are coming, and I've not started studying. Yet. D:

And I was planning to wake up early to study, in fact to wake up at 8am!
(Yes lah, unbelivable, I know.)

In the end, the handphone went screwy, and I threw a fit when I found out it was already 11.23am.

=.=''

WTH. I KNOW.

On the other hand, I've managed to finish my tugasan harian! *jumps for joy*
Finally, after procrastinating for... 3 weeks. (Oops.)

And I still have craploads of homework to finish, including :
Add Math. (Around 5-6 SP's. WAIIIII)
Tuition Add Math. (1 full paper, and I've forgotten most of my formulae...)
Tuition Chem. (Need. To. Revise.)
Kerja Amal (Sab, we neeeeeeeeeed to finish this!!!)

And as I said before,

HALPZ. (!)

Korean Jajangmyun!

2009-04-18T14:02:00.005+08:00

After pouring in the water, wait 4 minutes, then pour the water out again.

Noodles and the left-over water. (Eew.)

Jajangmyun / black-bean paste noodles! :D

What was left when I was done with my noodles. *Burp*
Yum.

All in all, I am def stocking up Jajangmyun the next time I go food shopping. ^^

The nth Time I've Done This...

2009-04-18T10:39:00.003+08:00

Actually, I have no flipping idea why the hell I decided to open a blog again. Methinks it's about the... I dunno, 8th time?

I hate updating, I hate having to type out these posts, and I'd rather be wasting my time spazzing over K-Pop.

And yet here I am.

Hopefully this won't turn out like the rest of my poor, deleted blogs. It's getting...sad.

Wish me luck!