Simple Love Songs =/= Cheesius Maximus

So I been listening to alot of love songs lately. Especially 'Two Is Better Than One'. I love how the melodies come together, and everything about the song is just... right. :)

Isn't that what like/love/*insert-your-own-term-here* supposed to be though? Everything being just right, with that one person?

I woke up this morning and missed someone. But now... I feel free.

Free to analyse whatever-the-hell music I have.
Free to pursue writing.
Free enough for my classical training in piano to finally kick in after years of oppression.
(It's so not a good time though.)
Free enough to actually finish my homework on the day it's given. (Shock and horror! Yes I know.)

And as cliched as this may be...

Free to discover who I am. :)

I 've had my good times, my bad times, and my ups and downs. But right now, I'm learning to take everything as it comes to me in stride. It's a somewhat weird feeling, of me being free, but I LOVE it. :)

PS. I go rock-climbing nearly every Saturday now! Have been for the past two, anyone interested in joining me? (Get your own belaying partner though.) :D

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An Update Of Sorts

I PASSED MY DRIVING TEST!!! :DDDDDD

FREEDOM BECKONS YUSSSSS 8DDDD

Other than that, this week's gonna be a hectic one. Taylor's Got Talent on Friday night, with the SATs the day after. THEN, Tokio Hotel's concert thing at OU.

OMG I IS ESSITED BILLLLL 8D

Gonna be so stressed/excited this week HEE~

Hopefully I don't accidently (on purpose) throw myself off a building because of too much excitement/stress. XD

On the other hand, I wonder how my entire Econs class (HS3 &HS4) will be able to fit in PS3's class. No place leh~ :/ Oh well.

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Holidays~

So after long hard weeks of sloughing away at college doing homework upon pile of homework and studying for tests (and failing), the CAL students of Taylors' FINALLY get a ten-day break.

YESSSSS :DDDDDDD

BUT.

Time in holidays are meant to be used as a means of catching up on work that you missed out on in normal classes (if you did miss some classes) and to revise the bulk of the syllabus that has been taught by the teachers to prepare for the upcoming Semester I exam.

(BOOOOOO.)

While my original plan WAS to actually, seriously catch up on homework, I ... kinda failed. But only halfway through!

I wasted three days on bumming around the house (Saturday, Sunday and Monday) when I could've gone to the TTDI library to do homework instead. =.=''

But before that I went out and hung out with friends. Ah, t'was fun. :)

Had mamak with Kenneth on Wednesday night after I got scorned by Kelly, Sabrina and Samantha. :'(

Had dinner and watched Date Night with ChungWye, Victor and ZhenHowe on Thursday night. (MUST GO WATCH THE MOVIE IT'S DAMN GOOD 8DDDD)

Went out and watched a movie with Jo, Grace, Deb, WaiHwa, Kenneth, Shaun, WengHian, WanYing, YinYii, Joyce, Melissa, Imran, Nicole and KarReid, How To Train Your Dragon. Kath then joined us, and we went off to the batting cages. In the end, Jo, Grace, Kath, WaiHwa, Kenneth and I had dinner at IKEA. Meatballs yay :DDD

(... Aiyoh, no wonder I'm going broke. X_X)

So now I've sorta started my Econs project paper, though for the life of me I can't imagine how I'm going to elaborate my points until 10-15 pages. Darn.

And there's Lit. homework (plotline for King Henry the IVth, Part I), and long LONG overdue Psychology essays.

... I'm so screwed. >:(

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Night Out Of Fun :D

Uurgh, stupid over-reactive imagination. When combined with hormones and rom-coms it makes me physically frustrated. >:(((

*Slaps self* Oh-kay, shall stop thinking of the physiciality of relationships now. I'm supposed to be off boys.

Anyways...

Went out to celebrate Kar Reid and Grace's belated birthday yesterday at The Curve. T'was extremely awesome. :D

We were supposed to leave school around... what, 3.30pm? But instead, the lot of us bummed around in PS3's class. ("What, what, in my butt." LOL This one's for WaiHwa and Kar Reid XD)

After that, finally headed for The Curve at around 5pm? Poor Kenneth got scorned by Shaun and his no-show of sportsmanship. (Donut be so kiasu lah Kenneth ;P)

Met at the cinema, then went for "Clash Of The Titans". I think it's my first time watching a blockbuster movie that has absolutely NO kissing scenes in it. Seriously. It's like, almost a miracle, 'cos y'know, sex sells and all that. But only it isn't. Oh whichever. But do try naming a movie where there wasn't any kissing. Even the Princess And The Frog has the characters kissing. =.=''

Deb left after the movie. :'( The rest of us, namely Shuan, Kar Reid, Jo, Grace, Imran, Kenneth, WaiHwa and Kevin (aka the Kommando, spelt with a K) had dinner at Itallianies.

And then I was reminded of how... childish boys can be. =.= (Name-swapping and random song spouting, anyone?) But it also reminded me of how sad my existence at Taylors' really is 'cos there are no boys in my class. T_____T

At the end of dinner Kar Reid (and to be honest, the rest of us as well) were surprised by half a cake, from Imran. Turns out he bought it from Secret Recipe and instructed the restaurant staff to come up at the end of dinner. How nice of him. :)

Then Shaun, Grace, Jo and Imran left, leaving only me, Kevin, Kar Reid, Kenneth and WaiHwa.

We went to the Ice Bar at The Sanctuary, where everything is made out of ice. O.O

It was pretty cool and all. No it was actually freaking freezing in there. I couldn't stop shivering and all of us were like, "It's bloody cold!" (Or something to that effect anyways XD)

Trip to the Ice Bar also was my first drinking experience. Is it really that hard to believe I've never drank before , though? @.@ 5 shots of Smirnoff for RM88. Nothing too bad, actually. I just downed it in one go. It made me all hot after that. >.<>:(

So all in all, it was a pretty fun night out, even though I bet everyone was actually kinda tired after college and whatnot, but at least we went out together. :DDD Can't wait for the next trip, though I have no idea when will that be, given that we're so busy and all. Nuts.

No photos whatsoever, because none of us thought to bring our cameras. I'll probably get it from FB or something. :D

PS. Is anyone interested to study together at the TTDI library during the CAL hols? (8-18th April) It's closed on Mondays, but I'm planning to go like, everyday. I've craploads of Psych essays to do, King freaking Henry to read finish, the SATs to study for, and Maths and Econs. Uurgh. D8

It's RM16 for a one time membership fee, and there's sorta like a dress code for girls, but it's not that bad lah. At least we get to study. :D It opens from 9am-6pm on weekdays, and 11am-4pm on weekends. So far, it's me, Deb, Kathleen, and maybe Jo, Grace, Kenneth and WaiHwa.

Let's study togetha-getha... and maybe go swimming after we're done. XD

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Tying Up Loose Ends

I hate how I'm pretty good at screwing with people's feelings over and under. Realization doesn't strike me until the MOST inoppurtune moments, when I've gotten myself in too deep.

I hate how I'm shit at confronting situations with people in person. And I deserve any hate if anyone does ignore me for the rest of my life if I pulled that stunt. I know I would do the same thing if I were on the receiving end.

(And I'm sorry for that. I really am.)

I hate how my brain has yet to be equipped with a sensor that differentiates my feelings, as in feelings between "like", "lust" and "like-as-in-I-want-to-have-you-as-my-bf-or-more-commonly-known-as-love(for lack of better word)".

Maybe it's my fault for being so complicated.

So that's it.

Unless you're someone who can make my insides melt into honey (e.g. signal of when I'm falling for someone) whenever you look into my eyes and vice versa (which is impossible, given my character of NOT dating anyone who I already consider a 'friend')...

I'm probably swearing off any romance with any males for next few months. Or until I turn 18. Or when I finally get that sensor everyone but me seems to have.

That is all. Don't ask for details.

(I also hate how I think like SUCH a guy: I hate emotions which complicate situations.)

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Second Week Of College

So, another week of college has gone and passed. Eventful? Uneventful? I'm not quite sure myself.

Nothing much has changed, except that the classes I'm in are starting to get closer in terms of friendship. Which explains the sudden 'College List' I have up on FB and the mass adding of friends. :D

Classes are starting to have crazy workloads. @.@

Especially Maths. OMG MATHS =Bane of my existence.

BUT.

I refuse to drop the darned subject. NYAH. >:D

The amount of homework piles up EVERY DAY, but hey, if I can get through SPM, the second hardest high school examination in the WORLD, pssh, A-Levels are peanuts.

(Someone please remind me of this post when I start whining about how hard my life is later on, kthxbai.)

Unlike Sabrina, I don't take pics in school, because.... there's basically no time at all! It's wait outside of class (cos the class is freezing, as always), get into class, lessons, lunch, and lessons again. And repeat for the next day and the next day and the next.

But Friday's my classes' half-day, so we have the opportunity to go out and have a looooong lunch. We're even thinking of driving out to Desa Sri Hartamas for Korean food next week! :DDD

HOWEVER. (From here on in it's going to be the what-happened-today post, fyi.)

We had some teamwork building workshop for our Lit. in English class, AND we had to finish Mr. Gan's homework, so that meant doing econs and eating lunch at the same time. =.=''

The workshop was LMFAO funny. One part of the workshop was charades, and this is one of the snippets of it:

"Why you join the Lit class?"
"... 'Cause Ms. Anne is hot!"
*Cue racuos laughter*
"But you not lesbian right? That's why you go Psychology class got Mr. Kumar mah!"

XDDD

OH. OH. OH. AND. :D

I've mentioned this on FB, but there has been a guy (and some others as well) that have been catching my eye, if you get what I mean. ;D But how to introduce if he's a senior? D:

Ahem. Moving on.

Today's ECA Drive thing was AWESOME, btw. As the workshop thingy only finished at 3.30pm, the lot of us went down late.

AND WITNESSED A REAL FLASH MOB. O.O

Actually it's a dance flash mob prepared by the Dance club members, but they were AWESOME. And yes, it is as in possum. :)

At the end of the day, I signed up for 4 clubs, which are Dance, Music, Psychology, and...

Wait for it...

...

...

...

KOREAN! :DDDDD

Hahaha, bet you coulda seen that coming from afar. XDDD

All in all, I've met alot of new friends, and hope to get to know them better. :)

In fact, I'm kinda sad that college's only 5 days a week.

TT_TT

But then I remember the workload we have and...

Yeah I like my weekends better. XD

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So Apparently I Should...

It's freaking 2.15am now. And I'm still up. Darn biological clock, you're not supposed to follow the "stay up til 6am new years eve" plan!

Anywho.

A friend prompted me to update this dying, barely alive blog. ("Why all the posts the same wan?")

Hey, at least I still feed it (not very often occuring) news.

So. Typing away now.

...

Uh, nothing to type about.

Well, I could start to describe in detail how my plan to enjoy life on its own was crashed and burned when my dad decided to persuade me to join the Jan intake of A-Levels.

I could be all mad, sad, angsty and whatnot. But I'm not, so... MEH.

Nothing to update lorh. People around me know that my life very the boring one what.

Hang on, I take that back. I actually do plan to go KL with Kelly this Sunday, and with Sab the next. Mum's taking me to Kino as well this Sunday, along with Dad taking me to The Star Education Fair on Saturday. Oh, and I'm taking my undang test (like, FINALLY after bajillions of eons) on Monday. And let's not forget about the first day of school at Taylors' Sri Hartamas the day after.

But you probably didn't want to know about that anyways. ;D

Besides, it's not that I don't want to blog, it's just that... no one appreciates me blogging.

*sniffs and wipes away tear*

I mean, I would do alot better if maybe some people gave comments and-

Ah, screw it. I hate grovelling.

Leave me loads of comments and I will update. I happy, you happy. Sama-sama.

We cool we cool?

(Thank Haziq for that last line. XD)

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Pre-U And Uni Woes, Oh My.

Just a quick post before dinner. Just spent the past 3 hours researching what top-tier unis from the US want when I apply to be admitted.

Dear Lord, how will I ever get in?!?! DDDD:

They consider your high school results. M y results are average, if not below that standard. But according to Deb, they place more emphasis on your SATs, so that's abit of hope for me.

And not to mention I need to complete a Pre-U course first. Of course the generic plan was to do A-Levels, but that would so wrong for me on so many levels:

It's totally exam based. I can't stick exams. Have you seen how badly I did in school?
I'll waste another year of my life, because I'll be taking the July intake, and therefore have to wait six months to aply for uni.
Sure I could go for the January intake, but hello? No freedom at all! I'll do even worse, kthx.
A-levels are the hardest Pre-U course in the world. It'll be SPM all over again. No, thank you.
More memorising. More studying. More pressure and stress.

I'm considering the Candian Pre-U, but is it even accepted worldwide? I mean, yeah, it says so, but one can't be too sure about this. But I really like the way they teach. I mean, 70% coursework, and only 30% exams. I'm confident that I'll do better in this lorh. Not to mention, the dude from the CPU program at Taylor's was extremely convincing.

SO HOW?!

My whole future is at stake. Save me. D:

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Happy 2010!

Ah, it's a brand new year again. 2009 was awesome, granted, but I can't wait to kick-start off 2010 with a bang. :)

And so I spent New Year's Eve with Abby, Samantha and Yee Peng. Baked apple pie, swam by the pool, gazed at the moon, watched two movies, slept at 6am. Quite an uneventful New Years Eve, but I'm content. :D

Really sorry for the lack of updates, I just need to get sorted out. The past few weeks I've been busy going out, hanging out, moving stuff from my room (my room now has a fresh coat of paint, complete with a wall of colour), yada yada yada. In short, my current mind and body are tired like shit. X.X

No New Years resolutions, except:

Get a fitter, healthier body.
Earn extra pocket money by getting a part time job.
Study for the SATs. And maybe get a headstart on A-Levels as well.
Learn to DRIVE.
Learn at least two new languages.
Write more.
Continue my music studies.
Keep my room clean. (Ahaha, this'll be tough. XD)
Keep in touch with friends. And not just by Facebook.

I'm serious about the last one. So people, bombard me with your e-mails, handphone numbers and whatnot. I'm really going to make an effort with this, I've lost touch with so many people already.

Hey, if I can still chat with a friend who I've known since F3, and she's halfway across the world now, mind you, I'm sure that you, whoever you are, that's still in Malaysia, can spare some time to chat, no? :)

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My Blog Is A Vegetable...

...it's been in a coma/half dead.

Blame me, as I've been busy, busy, busy ever since the end of Chem paper.

Lazy to post pix, but a short recap:

Sleepover at Sab's, with phail movie marathon.
Went out for a day of pampering.
Took the SPM Chinese paper, which was EFFIN CRAZY HARD.
Bought SAT prep books.
Prom. (TQ to anyone who said I looked hot, btw. I appreciate it. ;D)
Movies.
Outings. Or shopping, whichever that is.
Cousins from JB/Singapore came up, kinda had fun with them.

Next on the agenda:

Two of my best friends birthdays. (I pokai buy present for both of them you know?)
LOADS of books to be read.
KBS World. Hell yeah. Date with the TV every weekday evening and night. :)
New Year's Eve.

Pictures will probably come... a whole lot later. I'm lazy, so sue me.

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Just So You Know...

SPM IS OVAAAAARRR 8DDDDDD

Well, technically, it's not for me.

But.

Screw Chinese.

MERDEKAAAAAAAAAAAAAA~~~~~

XDDDDDDDDD

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Swimming!

Went library today, I was all alone. :( Saw Kelly, Hou Yi, Mei Tin and Mei Wan there, they were sitting at their own table.

Then I got a phonecall. Sabrina asked if I was there. Answering affirmatively, the next thing I knew, she was teman-ing me at the library! :D

Then we went swimming, after pigging out at the mamak. (Hou Yi came along as well, her dad was fetching her from my house.)

TQ Hou Yi for the the pix! :D (After she went back there weren't anymore D':)

Oh Sab...

XD

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Holidays Are Here Again....

The holidays are here, which means prom dress shopping! Hahaha

There has been absolutely NOTHING going in on my life, so excuse the maybe random outbursts that may occur.

Attending a wedding dinner tonight, where I'll meet old acquaintances. Hmm.

The stupid 2PM issue has not been resolved, so I have decided to distance myself away from K Pop for the moment. Which means no spazzing. Boo :(

G-Dragon from Big Bang has this ultrasuperamazingly cute puppy! *squee*

And since I'm distancing myself away from K Pop, there's nothing much I can do except stalk the 'uhljjang' thread at Soompi.

SO DER MANY MANY PRETTY BOYS AND GIRLS. *jealous*

'Uhl' is face in Korean, and 'jjang' means best, so basically these people have 'best faces'.

The things they have in comon?

1. All of them have practically flawless, pale, fair skin. Even the boys.
2. All of them are inhumanly baeuiful. Yes beautiful, not just pretty.
3. All of them have fashion sense. And no, it's not lala fashion.

I don't really care about the girls, but the boys there are drool-worthy. Like, seriously.

So maybe half of them may had plastic surgery. Pshh. As if I care. What I care about is that they're pretty eye-candy for the moment.

On a closing note, Haeundae the movie made me cry.

And it's a film about a killer tsunami in Korea, dammit.

But it still made me cry. TT___TT (MinKi-ah~)

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Finally, An Update!

Yes, I am fully aware that my blog has been dead for the past few weeks, thankyouverymuch. Blame not having to be able to use the computer for like, 2 weeks then.

Since my last post, things have turned topsy turvy. How? let me count the ways...

- I didn't kena NS! YEAH! I was SO nervous waiting for the stupid sms to come in. And I checked TWICE : online and through sms. So holidays after SPM, here I come!

- The MTV Asia Awards are going to be held in Malaysia, AGAIN, this year, August 15 at Sunway Lagoon. 2PM's gonna be there.

...WHY JYP WHY?!! I'M HAVING MY TRIALS NEXT MONTH, DAMMIT!

SCREW TRIALS, I'M DEFINITELY GOING. :D

- I'm stopping my dance class. TT_TT After this Saturday, I can't go to SMASH until like, after SPM. I'll miss my teacher, my dancemates, the Starbucks that I used to get....

(OK, so the Starbucks thing is a joke, but I really will miss them. Dennis you better finish that Ray J cheoreo this weekend, PLEASE...)

- Somehow, I feel like I've been retreating into a shell lately. I have no idea why. I don't feel happy, more depressed, and I feel like I am slowly being pushed away. Call it emo or PMS-ing, I'm sure it isn't. I'm slowly being left out.

- TRIALS START IN SEPTEMBER! MUST STUDY!

- 2PM'S IN THAILAND! This is another thing I hate about Korean stars. It's always, ALWAYS Thailand. Malaysia's just a hop, skip and jump away. JUST COME HERE ALREADY, DAMMIT!

- I've managed to get ally into JunSu from DBSK, Debbie into Alex from Clazziquai. Not really that much, but it's still a start. :P

And hence, I conclude that maybe for the next few months, this blog will continue to be dead. :)

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