What The Hell Do I Do Now?

Still too young, or too old?

Still immature, or mature too soon?

Still hiding in the past, or throwing oneself head-first into the future?

I don't know anymore.

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I used to think I was better than other girls. I thought that I didn't need reassuring, and I was independent, free of being clingy to others.

I guessed I was wrong. I like to be coddled, to be taken care of, to be let known that I'm loved.
(Just so in moderation, and in actions rather than words.)

Maybe I'm just paranoid. But the feeling I have in my stomach won't go away until I am assured that I do have that person's full attention.

Sigh. Maybe it's just me. :/

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Past Whispers and Reminisces

It's funny how pictures can bring back a multitude of (by-gone) feelings.

A slow touch of hands, deliberately-by-accident.

The feel of his warmth next to me.

"So can I have your number?"

It's just a shame that not even months of texting could forge a possible friendship. We don't even speak to each other anymore.

Still, it was fun (at times) while it lasted.

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YOUTH'10 Festival

No time to write up on what happened (exams in a week, HALPZ) but here's a video of Kenneth, IMran, Kar Reid and Azri playing as "K.I.T.A." at the YOUTH'10 Festival. They're awesome, 'nuff said. :D

Who you gonna call? GHOSTBUSTERS! 8D

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Random Thoughts And Ramblings

• I think of your lips against mine, and my insides pull at my heart. Begging for more, but what can I give when I have nothing (or no-one)?

• You're beautiful, but you don't know it. You even manage to take my breath away. And I'm the girl here, damnit.
  

• As enigmatic as you are, as much as you pique my interest, if you don't show any signs, you'll just be like the one before.
  

• I hate mixed signals. Don't be like a girl, because you certainly aren't one.
  

• How is it that you fit nearly perfectly in the mental mould I have of the 'perfect guy', as cliched as it may be? But yet you still are not. No one is.

• When will I ever get a hug and proper conversation from you?
  

• There are many doors in our lives. By opening a door, you make a decision. By locking it, you turn that chance away. The probability of you opening a door is 50/50: there are only two choices. You can hem and haw, delaying and waiting, but you have to make a choice in the end anyway. Why not open the door and take a chance? There's nothing you can't risk, if you have the chance to be happy. (Paraphrased from Shaun.)

Don't take everything in this post at face value. Some comments were written for now, some were for the past. Some are for (a hopeful) future.

The past few weeks have been... somewhat emotionally draining. Not to a bad extent, but it was, to an extent, a thorn in my side. (Feelings are ambiguos things: they make you welcome yet abhor them.) And can someone tell me what to do about the urge to make out? Seriously, it bugs me so much. So. FREAKING. Much.

Okay, rambles done. Time to sleep. :)

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An Update Of Sorts

I PASSED MY DRIVING TEST!!! :DDDDDD

FREEDOM BECKONS YUSSSSS 8DDDD

Other than that, this week's gonna be a hectic one. Taylor's Got Talent on Friday night, with the SATs the day after. THEN, Tokio Hotel's concert thing at OU.

OMG I IS ESSITED BILLLLL 8D

Gonna be so stressed/excited this week HEE~

Hopefully I don't accidently (on purpose) throw myself off a building because of too much excitement/stress. XD

On the other hand, I wonder how my entire Econs class (HS3 &HS4) will be able to fit in PS3's class. No place leh~ :/ Oh well.

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Lyric Post

"Do you dream at night
Dream of 'What if I's?
Do you play love songs
Just to sing along?
Does your heart beat faster
When I'm there?
Do you think of me?
Do you even care?"

Just a little drabble. (c) to me, STEAL AND DIE. >:D

Oh, and comments too plzz. :)

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Random Wordspit.

"I've been watching
Looking and waiting
For a story to happen
For a song to start playing"

(The start of a so-called song that WH wanted to start yesterday in the library but failed. XD)

I need to start bringing my camera to school and to take more pictures of my college friends. My blog seems so... BLAND from the lack of pictures. .___.

Currently in bed with the lappie and with the lights off. Rain's pouring outside my window and it's such a perfect time to sleep. :)

Btw, need some advice. How do you know if you've fallen for a person or if a person has fallen for another person?

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