I Never Knew...

I actually felt myself blush for the first time today.

And I couldn't wipe that smile off my face.

:)

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Do You NOT Read Post Scripts?

Okay, time to clear up the misinformation, methinks.

Ever since the Jan 27th post, I've gotten two different kinds of reactions.

From the guys (even though I've said to NOT say it to my face. Thanks guys. =.=)
- "Wah, got so desperate boh?" (Or something along those lines anyway.)

From the girls
- "OMG HQ you made me reminisce / OMG so sweet"

All in all it's a total disaster. Guysward I mean. I LOVED all the comments that the girls gave me. Thank youuu~ :D

Getting on.

When I typed out that long, lengthy, burn-your-brains-out post, I neglected to mention one tiny 'lil fact about myself.

See, every year, without fail, I'd find myself suddenly drowned in the wanting and yearning of a boyfriend. To have someone to hold, someone to whisper sweet nothings in my ear whenever we're together.

(Getting off course, ahem.)

BUT.

It'll last all of two or more months, then I'm suddenly fine with things and carry one like before.

So BASICALLY, I published that post when I was... y'know, wanting someone really crazily.

However the need's not really that strong now. The feeling's waning. Things are slowly coming back to normal for me, personally.

So in layman's terms:

I'm not that despo for a boyfriend, but it doesn't mean I'm swearing to be celibate for the next 10 months.

With that said and done, please stop commenting on how the post makes me seem despo. Uurgh. Lower my self-esteem saja. Boo. >:(((

PS. I'm home alone and loving it! :D YAY for singing out loud with no one around :D

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Sparks (?)

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What I Want, Will I Get?

Just a little something I wrote like, eons ago. But it still reminds of how serious physical attraction feels. :)

The chemistry was always there
Lacking only sparks that flare
When I walked right past you
Could you feel it too?

Looking around for stolen glances
Not getting anymore answers
Stop teasing me and looking my way
Don't you know it leaves me with nothing to say?

PS. Let me know what you think :D

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What I Was, What I Am, What I Will Be

This is the place where I sit
This is the part where
I love you too much
Is this as hard as it gets?
'Cause I'm getting tired
Of pretending I'm tough
I'm here if you want me
I'm yours, you can hold me
I'm empty and aching and
Tumbling and breakin'
'Cause you don't see me
And you don't need me
And you don't love me
The way I wish you would
The way I know you could

I dream of worlds
Where you'd understand
And I dream a
Million sleepless nights
I dream of fire when
You're touching my hand
But it twists into smoke
When I turn on the light
I'm speechless and faded
It's too complicated
Is this how the book ends,
Nothing but good friends?

'Cause you don't see me
And you don't need me
And you don't love me
The way I wish you would

This is the place in my heart
This is the place where
I'm falling apart
Isn't this just where we met?
And is this the last chance
That I'll ever get?
I wish I was lonely
Instead of just only
Crystal and see-through
And not enough to you

'Cause you don't see me
And you don't need me
And you don't love me
The way I wish you would

'Cause you don't see me
And you don't need me
And you don't love me
The way I wish you would
The way I know you could

PS. A cookie if you can actually guess what song this is WITHOUT GOOGLING IT. :D

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